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“He’s truly my ex and the love of my life.”
“After we reconnected, I used to be in a relationship. He was married. I believed the affair was a fast one-time bodily fling. He needed extra. He mentioned he was in an virtually loveless and poisonous marriage with little or no intimacy. I believed him and nonetheless do. I witnessed a number of interactions between him and his spouse. We determined to attempt to make a full-blown relationship out of it. We have been in love, however he didn’t wish to go away his spouse due to their youngsters. I didn’t wish to ask him to depart as a result of I felt he ought to independently select me, and I didn’t need the potential guilt of being the catalyst that separated him from his youngsters.Â
It lasted over a yr, however we couldn’t make it work. I wasn’t getting what I wanted from him by way of companionship and non-sexual intimacy. There was at all times the stress of ‘What if she finds out and takes the youngsters?’ I couldn’t blame him for that concern. He’s an superior dad, and I might by no means need him to lose his youngsters. He’s nonetheless the love of my life. I really like him deeply, purely, and with all of my coronary heart. It’s probably the most full love I’ve ever felt. I don’t suppose I’ll ever love anybody as a lot as I really like him. Sadly for me, that stood for nothing ultimately.”
–Nameless